Post Expectation

Every seconds, minutes and hours of the day in my week have been passing its way on me, without even saying goodbye. I never been sure of things that happen on my life. Uncertain of things that basically redundant. I fell in love, I let my heart broke for something that I don't know if it is worthy. I fell in love again and hurt myself again in a very absurd situation and again regain my self esteem to highest speak-able standard of my hypothalamus. Then it will leave me again, I don't know what will I do to make myself busy for the next 10 months. I don't know when will it last or it will last forever. I just don't how to move on. I don't know what to feel. I don't know how to trust, I don't know how to build my enthusiast self. Like an architecture, that builds in a must structural state of living. I don't know if I will still know him after the passing months. I don't know if I will expect something that is so constructive...