Hi! i'm hir again to share my thoughts with you.. it's just i'm really tired of waiting what would happen after this... i love him.. i always pray for him every night but still i don't feel his worthy of my predictable love for him.. i don't want to blame my self on what had happen... i just can't pretend.. that i thought his the one... communication seems to be a very hard thing for him to do.. i do understand him.. i just can't help myself to doubt him.. i thought this was the chance for me to show the things in my life... i really feel alone when i feel that i can't trust him.. i love him so much... and i want to see him.. but this time it would be impossible... i have to pursue the things my parents want me to do.. hope he'll understand.. otherwise, he will not care because he don't really care... i love him but i can't say this words to him because i don't want to hurt myself anymore... i think i'll just move on without him.. i can survive and i will... i think this would be the end... bye!!!